Hexxxagonal

I have had humiliation/cuckquean/submissive fantasy for years. It had been my own personal fantasy that I never thought I would act on or tell anyone. I didn't want to tell my boyfriend of 6-years because I was scared of what he would think or say. 

Lately, scrolling tumblr and bdsmlr hadn't been scratching that itch and I questioned if I wanted more. We have been dealing with a bit of a dead bedroom for a while and I wondered if this kink had maybe been affecting my libido. Maybe i was needing a more humiliation/cuckquean-like dynamic? I struggled for months and finally decided that I wanted to tell my boyfriend in hopes that it may reignite our sex life. 

I told him my feelings and explained that I don't know if I ever want to physically act on this, but having him watch porn or look at pictures of sexy women would really turn me on. He took the news okay.. He didn't believe me at first and laughed. Him laughing at me when I was being so vulnerable hurt. Bad. I think I must have made a face because he immediately apologized and began to take the talk more seriously. We both expressed our concerns and boundaries and in the end, he actually seemed pretty interested! I felt so good and accepted that i even told him about my humiliation kink and he seemed into it too! I asked him to be more dominant and he agreed!

I didn't expect anything to change immediately, but that night when we were lying in bed, he started watching porn on his phone. At first, I didn't realize he had put on porn. Once I heard the moans, I looked over at him and he looked at me with with a bit of a smirk. He told me to take his pants off and give him a blow job. I eagerly complied, ripped his pants off, and got to work. 

I don't think he realized exactly what I wanted from the humiliation aspect of my kinks so I had to initiate it. I asked him to find a video of a girl he finds sexy and would want to fuck. Of course he found one of a girl with a perfect ass (he's an ass man). I asked him to list off everything he liked about her and tell me what he would do to her if he was with her. He didn't last much longer after that and came in my mouth. I obediently swallowed his cum with a smile. He asked if I actually enjoyed it and I told him I loved it. 

We ended up having sex for the first time in months and he made a comment about how wet I was. I told him that what we did really turned me on! This made him even more into the idea of indulging my kinks. He ended up using me and fucking me hard and even told me he was thinking of the girl from the porn video and her tight, hot body!!! I immediately came so hard! He finished quickly after and I don't think I have ever been so sexually satisfied in my life.

I can't wait to see where we go from here.